I have to apologize for my radio silence over the last couple of months! With everything opening up again, I’ve been so busy with clients, and classes, and summer camps, and lessons, I’ve barely had time to eat, let alone write an email or a blog post. Honestly, I started writing this over a month ago if that gives you any idea of my current hectic schedule!
The last 2 months have basically been non stop this:
On the one hand, I can’t complain about being in demand. It’s so wonderful to be working with all my students, and I started seeing people in my home studio again!
Yay, faces! Hugs! It’s so great!
On the other hand, I’m tired y’all.
Before Covid, I’d spent the previous 5 years or so living in burnout. I worked so much it was ridiculous. I was constantly exhausted. I barely had time to do any of my own training or self care, and could scarcely manage to cook food or clean the house. And you know how I felt?
Lazy. Unproductive. Unmotivated.
In retrospect, I know this is ridiculous. I can even laugh (cry) about it now! But at the time, I felt that because I never had any energy for anything other than work, that I wasn’t accomplishing any of my other goals, that I was lazy.
LOL
The first few months of Covid were something of a revelation to me. I don’t remember the last time I didn’t feel like I had to be constantly working, constantly earning money, constantly saying yes. Going from being a poor, young, single mom, to working in circus and fitness where you only make money when you’re actually working with someone, I spent most of my adult life with near constant financial pressure. I didn’t know how to live my life any other way!
And then I had to stop working. I had to stay at home. I had to slow down.
And all of a sudden, I had time to work on new projects! I had energy to start working towards goals I’d only imagined before! I got to try new things and discover that I really enjoy them!
I realized that I could live a life of balance. That it’s so important to take time to do things for myself, and make space for the things in my life that fill me up. And that I don’t have to be constantly in service to other people to have value!
Fast forward to a couple of weeks ago when I was complaining to my partner about how unproductive I’d been feeling.
He looked at me funny and said “Lauren, you’ve barely been home for the last two weeks!”
And I realized that I was back on track to burnout land! Over scheduled, overworked, and no time to recharge. And I hadn’t even noticed!
**record scratch**
So, I have re-committed to finding balance in my life. I’m going to work less, but for real this time! I’m going to take time to do the things that make me happy!
Right about now you’re probably thinking “That’s great, but why are you telling me about this? I’m here for nerdy fitness content and workouts!”
But that’s part of my point. I LOVE writing nerdy fitness content and making workout videos! I am so passionate about my work and I really love sharing it with you, and not having time to do those things makes me sad!
So, it may not happen next week, but I’ll be back to sharing my love of how bodies are weird with you soon.
I promise!
And I’ve got some stuff coming up that I’m really excited about, and I wanted to share with you!
Next month I start my training in the GYROTONIC expansion system (because I totally have time to start teaching a new modality *eyeroll*). As silly as it may be for me to try to take on a whole new thing, I’ve been wanting to do this for years and I’m so excited! I expect to have new, wacky things to share based on what I am learning there and I can’t wait!
I am also thrilled to have been invited as a panelist during the upcoming Virtual Aerial Dance Festival! The panel will be moderated by the delightful April Moore Skelton, and we will be discussing pregnancy, birth, and navigating motherhood as an aerialist.
When Flyers Nest: Aerial and Motherhood is happening on August 6th at 9am PST. You can learn more and sign up here.
These last 18 months have been a time of change and growth for many of us. I hope you are taking the time to care for yourself, to let go of habits that don’t serve you, and finding new ways to love and care for yourselves. We’ve got this one life here, so we might as well make the most of it, right?
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